Contemplations

So I have been in a very stressful place lately. I have been struggling with money and wondering how we are going to make it most days. Which led me to Beachbody and becoming a coach to hopefully make extra money one of these days. It hasn't happened yet but I am optimistic. I know I can help people and these products are great! I have also had "friends" who have shown me that maybe I should not be their friend. I am not going into the details because I would be here for days, but they have pushed me to the point of not tolerating their crap anymore. It's a horrible thing to know that these people that you thought were trustworthy, but turn out not to be. I am not saying I am a perfect friend either, but I try my best. Plus besides myself, I have children. These girls are my life and they deserve to have only the best of me and my friends and family. If I am bringing sketchy people around, how is that healthy for them? I have been known to be a forgiving person. Most of the time I will forgive and forget. I do this way too much. I had a friend that I was friends with for years on and off because she was not a good friend. I have finally written her off for good. I have done this with a few others as well. Now I feel like I am a heartless person for it but I just can't stand to put up with b.s. anymore. I don't want to have to worry about whether I can trust somebody or what that person is doing or saying behind my back. It's drama that I don't need. I don't have time! One particular person just keeps coming back. I have blocked them on a few networks but they find a way to find me, add me, and then send me messages. Why?? According to them I was not a good friend to them. I was given a laundry list of things that made me a horrible friend. So why is this person basically stalking me on social networks? I have no idea. So I decided:  fine, I will let them in again. I feel like I should give them a chance since they are trying so hard to be my friend. Am I wrong? Will I regret this? Who knows right? I guess I will never know until it happens. So what is my point in this blog? My point is:  people are usually good people, but you have to look for them. Everyone is so focused on the tragedies and the stresses that they lose sight on the good things. I am trying to see that more now. I am often focused on the opposite. I worry SO much! I was recently shown that I work with amazing people. These people have given me so much love since I started last March. They knew I was struggling with things right now. A few people have given my daughters amazing gifts and just let me unload my stresses on them. I am very grateful that I have them in my life. These are the types of people I need around me. I don't need or deserve less than that. I will step off my soap box now. Have a lovely day/evening (depending on when you read this LoL)!